Everyone Falls

Everyone Falls

I messed up…  It took a while to notice, because I keep myself busy with work.  I’m coming clean today!

People always ask me,”How do you have so much self-discipline” to stay away from fast food, sugar, caffeine, etc?”

Well, it’s not easy, nor am I perfect.  I fall.  I fall flat on my face sometimes.  While it is imperative to my health and seizure-free lifestyle that I stick to my strict diet, it’s not always what I do.  I mess up, I am human.

It doesn’t matter how much someone preaches about healthy habits, eating well, exercising, or the like; Everyone falls.

Since moving from LA to ATX, I’ve noticed my healthy habits falling off, and more socially acceptable norms making their way into my daily life.  What habits?  Oh, you know…  FAST FOOD, SUGAR, CAFFEINE.  I swore off these things YEARS ago, but when I’m stressed, depressed, anxious, these sneaky habits find there way back into my life.

When this happens, I realize that I am not aligned with my truth, my energy is off, I’m not living my best life, and I become a burden on those I love.

Did you read that last action? I become a burden on those I love.

That’s something that is not OK with me.  Not only am I not taking care of myself by living a healthy lifestyle that is aligned with my truth, but I am burdening those around me that I love most.  I’ve often wondered?  Is this fair?  Is my health someone else’s responsibility?  I think we all know the answer to this one…  NO! 

It is nobody’s responsibility to take care of me and my health!  Good health is a very personal choice.  When you accept responsibility for your health, you are no longer able to blame others.

My husband is so supportive, but I can see when my health begins to be a drain on him and our relationship.  Don’t get me wrong, he’s a trooper.  He puts up with so much from me and my body.  When my muscles go limp, he picks me up.  When my body temperature rises, he cools me down.  When I feel I can’t go any further, he pushes me to do my best.  I couldn’t have asked for a better partner in this life.

Photo by Drew Burke Photography


So why would I disrespect him and our relationship by not taking care of myself?  I get tired. 

Just like you, I get so tired of fighting this uphill battle we call “epilepsy.” It’s so exhausting to constantly be in battle with your body.  Using all your energy to be “normal,” combined with the extra energy is takes to go the extra mile to be “healthy” is a lot for any person to take on themselves.

BUT, it’s not a choice…  There’s no quality of life when I move backwards – disconnected from my body, unhealthy, and unmotivated.  I’m not allowing the bad habits back into my life.  Today, I choose to be happy & healthy. I choose to be my best. Because, it is a choice.  When we deny it’s a choice, we are only appeasing our egos, by deflecting the blame and pointing fingers in the other direction.

I know you are powerful, determined, and strong enough to make the right choices to live your best life and unburden those you love.  If you don’t believe in yourself, know that I believe in you.  (I’m not just saying that.) I know that each and every one of us has what it takes to live our best lives.  (It’s true!)

I encourage you all to join me in hitting the “restart button” this Monday morning!  Let’s live our best lives and support each other!

While we must be grateful for the amazing people in our lives, we must be aware enough to not trample on their best shot at happiness.  When we take responsibility for our actions, it’s easier see the beauty in others and create harmonious relationships.

Go out there, and live your best life!

Christalle Bodiford is an artist, advocate, writer, and adventure seeker. As an entrepreneur diagnosed with epilepsy, Christalle brings a unique perspective of empowerment that inspires others to embrace a positive mindset and live with purpose. When she’s not writing or advocating, Christalle enjoys puppy snuggles with her scruffy terrier and outdoor adventures with her husband.

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